• Trauma: when you feel like you’re falling

    Four years ago, during one of the hardest seasons of my life, I learned that I had PTSD. I think back to those days, that season, and remember vividly how cloaked my perception of life was. It’s truly the worst when you realize what is happening in your mind, and yet you feel helpless to make it stop. My PTSD stemmed from a childhood trauma, being on edge was my normal. But it was the birth of my first child that alerted me to the hyper-vigilance I lived with daily. Most women get an intense shakiness after delivering their babies, one of the reasons this happens is because of the…

  • I Use Labels

    As someone who combats chronic illness daily, you may not be surprised to hear that I get a lot of advice. I don’t just mean advice about how to manage it, or treat it… but advice around how to cope with it, or overcome it. I don’t think these are individuals who are unfamiliar with hurt or pain, but I do believe they misjudge me. You see, I actively embrace labels and diagnoses, because I believe that knowledge is power… 1. Knowledge helps me be proactive, to take good care of my vessel. The way I see it, it helps me care for the body God gave me. I can…

  • Check your soil

    The question is not “am I smart, am I beautiful, am I useful, am I successful?” The question is “am I planted in the right soil?” Are you where you’re supposed to be? To the untrained eye, these plants were both placed in good soil… but what you cannot see is the foundation slab a foot beneath the plant on the right… it’s roots could only go so far. Having trouble? Check your soil.

  • Reia

    I felt a stir inside when we learned you were coming, an anxiousness that I struggled to name. I was quick to notice the hormonal and emotional changes I was going through, but even my mind’s eye can see there was more going on. Darkness. Back then we lived in our Dark House, not only did this home have only 4 windows in the entire house, I could tell in my spirit, from the day we first walked through it, that this house was dark spiritually… but how do you tell your new husband, and new in laws, that this beautiful house they want you to buy is evil? It…

  • Mountains, not the hills

    This week has been a firm reminder that at any given moment, there are many mountains out there waiting for me… not just the one I am on. Some would call this a “buzz kill” of sorts, but i disagree. As I sit here, massaging my leg that spontaneously fell asleep, while my low blood pressure limits simple activities (like standing for conversations), I have plans to visit the East Coast to see museums and historical monuments. I have plans to hike the Redwood Forest and Grand Canyon, places I haven’t been since I was a kid. Those are mountains I can only get to if I am fully dedicated…

  • Lean in and Be Motivated

    Thanks to science, we know that the brain does not finish developing until around 25 years old. With this we know that most of our core beliefs are formulated before 25, with few major changes thereafter without something drastic influencing those beliefs. What we don’t talk about very often is how those core beliefs are driven by feelings that we believe at our core. Many of you are familiar with the movie Inside Out. This movie is such a powerful display of how this unfolds, passively demonstrating how Riley’s main driver was joy, but her parents’ drivers were sadness and anger. In real life it isn’t that simple, we know…